missing

Los Angeles, April 29th 2008
Jakarta, April 30th 2008

dear love,

why do i suddenly feel this heartache, love ?.
feels like a part of your heart is snatched away ..
it hurts ..
tears won't do any better ..
no matter how torrent it bursts ..
is this what they call homesick ?.
i miss you, mes ..
i miss joe ..
i miss the rest of the class ..
i miss 12 Art ..
i miss mr c ..
i miss art room where we get our sketches done ..
i miss singing and dancing until sir boy yelled at us ..
i miss the scent ..
i miss chillin out, killin time doin nothin ..
i miss getting drunk in the middle of the day just because we felt like getting drunk ..
i miss homeroom and assembly ..
i miss waitin for it to be over ..
i miss the aroma of sweat at the 8th floor ..
i miss skipping math period ..
i miss all the things we did ..

i regret taking it for granted ..
i regret praying for it to be over so fast ..
i regret the times that i couldnt be there with you ..


i just realized how far i am from home ..
from a person, a best friend that was and will always be true to me ..
from all the memories ..

depressed ..
miserable ..
cheerless ..
heart broken ..
distressed ..
frazzled ..
soulless ..

sincerely,
meiling